RIGHT BRAIN. LEFT BRAIN.

I have a long story to tell you....but not today. I'll get it all together pretty soon and share it but for now, we're going to talk about how much I love to paint!


Have I mentioned that?

Something happened that seemed bad. It wasn't. I think it was probably pretty good, actually. A lot of things in life seem bad and turn out to be pretty good, have you noticed?

So now, I have a nice supply of big canvases that I can approach as though they are disposable....like paper! That sure takes a lot of pressure off. It doesn't matter, one iota, whether it tuns out well. All that matters is that I enjoy applying paint to the canvas.

I simply love the beginning stages of my paintings. I am free and unfettered and fearless! And then, I ruin it all by starting to use my left brain to 'think.' Yes. That's what I do. Over and over and over again.

So often, I love a beginning stage painting and then I fall out of love with it.

I realized, thanks to a special mentor, that I needed to let myself stay in that 'playing' stage and banish the 'thinking' stage from the whole process. Creativity is, after all, a right brain effort for the most part.

Today, I grabbed myself one of those big, blank 'disposable' canvases and went at it! I used a big brush...actually one that you would use to paint woodwork or cabinets or something. Whenever I caught myself 'thinking', I would stop and get back into 'playing' mode.

When I am in this 'playing' mode, I find the brush putting paint on the canvas in a way I don't think about at all. It seems random...chaotic even. But, I'm recognizing, it's neither. I'm thinking it's my creative right brain taking over the reins and getting the job done the way I really want it done! I just need to learn to trust my right brain!

Oh, how I want this to go well! And, you know what?

I think it will...as long as I keep my self playing instead of working! As long as I keep my left brain quiet...until I need it...maybe for details...and maybe not at all...unless it's time to pay a bill, or something.

If it doesn't go well, it will be because I let left brain me take over. And if so, I will forgive myself and try again. I'm getting there. I really feel like I AM GETTING THERE!

And I am so GRATEFUL for that!

And I am so GRATEFUL for my mentor, whose advice I completly trust!